I have been feeling VERY overwhelmed these days. As you can see I go through periods that I am fine and life is just going along and I am going with the flow of things and then there are times that I am thinking "How did I get here" and "Will it always be like this". There is just not enough time in the day. I feel like I have at least 3 fulltime jobs. My work, Janessa, the boys and all of their medical stuff. I am also a fulltime nurse case manager which is ridiculous sometimes. Then there is also running the household. Sometimes it is more than I can bare but what can I do, because I have no choice but to get up the next day and do the same thing.

Isaiah is better. I took him to the drs. on Friday in between work and they checked his blood and urine and everything else in between and nothing. We were there for almost 3 hrs. (unbelieveable) and of course it was "VIRAL". Man I hate that word. It basically means, we have no idea what it is and there is no medication for you. I also get so frustrated with our pedi. He has NO clue what to do with these boys. Everytime I ask him a question, he defers it to Children's Hospital. I feel like saying " Is there anything that you DO know?"

Avery is still vomitting almost daily with meds. which sucks. He gets so junky after. He is having intermittent desats at night and is up all night. We really do need to go through with this test this week. I am dreading it b/c it is NOT going to be pleasant. It is going to be awful in fact. I just hope that after making this decision that it yeilds us some important information. Always tough decisions with these guys. They changed the date to Weds. b/c pre-op flipped when they saw Avery's chart and wanted an ICU bed for him post-op. It is not post-op I am worried about but more the testing the next day. We will be in ICP which is the step down to ICU and they know Avery very well there so I feel much more comfortable.

Janessa is totally depressed b/c our friends moved into their new home today and of course took their dog with them. Luckily they only live 2 miles down the road. Janessa can still go for walks with Daisy. She was so great with the dog it was really cute. Maybe someday she will get one but I don't see one in the near future. She did say that she is going to put letters in the neighbors mailboxes asking to walk their dogs for money :).