In the last few days, I feel like I have needed to be cloned in about 10 ways. Of course that is not possible. Maybe, I am feeling this way b/c we have not had much nursing these days. Boy you just don't realize how much you need them until you don't have it. We get 48 hrs. a week for the 2 boys which covers our work week and Sats. These boys are just soooo much work. You just don't stop for a minute. As I have said, they are complete wild rolling, pooping, vomitting, and handsome boys. But nonetheless keep us on our toes. Never a dull moment. This is the hardest job ever.
Rick has been nonstop with camps and I hold down or at least try to hold down a full time job. Now in the meantime, we now have no Sat. nurse and my 2 day a week nurse has been out sick. I have a ton of work to do and alot of pressure from the job to get it done and yet I still have to care for my family. See why I need a few clones on hand.
The boys have a ton of appts. coming up and I am the one who misses work for them. I wish Rick to take over but it is just not possible. I just feel like everything is on me. Yes, this is a total rant. I am allowed. Sometimes I just need to get it out. I am not a crier and sure wish I was but it just does not happen for me. I just want to give this kids the best possible life that I can and also remain who Nicky is. What a tough role this is. Without my faith, I just don't know how I would do it.
So on a good note.........
Because my nurse was out today, no work so I took the kids to see Ratouile (sp?) instead. Janessa like it but was antsy, Avery feel asleep in my arms which never happens and Isaiah was just cracking up laughing the whole time. I just could not stop looking over at him the whole time. He is just such an amazing sole. He will always have fun. You just look at this handsome boy stuck in this horrible body and yet is always happy. So for the low I was feeling, he just so lifted my up. Remember what Isaiah means "Gift from God" and boy is he. Now I don't want to sound like I am playing favorites b/c I am not but when you meet Isaiah in person you too will experience him. There is no sadness around him.
Wow, I think this is my longest post. Just alot of feelings that I needed to get out. Thanks for reading. Hope you all don't think I am too crazy.
2 comments:
Hi Nicky- I'm thinking of you guys! Isaiah does sound like a ral gift- and I am glad that on the worst days his joyful spirit helps you pull through and see the good!
Hi Nicky,
I am glad to read your notes, makes me feel like I am still a part of "Isaiah's loop". I couldn't agree more with what you say about there just being something about him. The smile on his face was always enough to make the drive to E.B.Elem. a breeze! I am grateful for the opportunity to know him and all of you! I had a blast chatting with Janessa during my last visit and Avery is such a love. Take care! I will keep you in my prayers!
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