Recovering......

Is gonna take a lot longer than I thought....

I ended up getting discharged late Friday.  It felt sooo good to get back in my own bed and not be woken up all night for vital signs and to the old lady constantly hitting the code button.  I had not realized how sore I was until I walked outside the hospital room.  My only movement in the previous days were to the bathroom and back to the bed.  Needless to say it was very slow going for me.  I took some powerful pain meds and slept great but felt like I had been hit by a mac truck in the morning.  It was not until the visiting nurse came in the morning to help with my IV meds that I realized how sick I was.  I guess kidney abcesses are pretty rare and especially to the severity that I had.  Also my lab work looked horrible so they were completely surprised to see that I was already home from the hospital.  In general I don't feel at all like myself, and I have no appetite to boot.  I tire easily and just feel really rundown.  Rick kept on looking at me today b/c he couldn't believe how sunk in my face looked :(  I know it's gonna take time to get better and my energy back.  This just seemed to come out of nowhere.  I am a very healthy person who just got real sick real quick.  I'm hoping by the end of the week I will start feeling and looking like my old self. 

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Enough about myself.....

Thankfully, the boys totally behaved themselves while I was in the hospital and home sick.  Of course Isaiah has continued to retch every stinking Sunday (which we plan at this point).  Other than that he has been great.  Avery is so much better now that he has completed his IV antibiotics.  Having taken some now I can see why the poor kid was so miserable.  Today we went for a TPN appt. and we were able to reduce his time on the pump from 20 hrs to 18 hrs.  Not alot but it's better than nothing and it will make things much easier for us at home.  Drs. thought he looked great today so I am hoping and praying he stays that way for a good good stretch of time.  I am so done with hospitals at this point.  I knew we would pay dearly for having 4 months off.  We just go through so much in the house with very little breaks so it would be nice to have a normal life for just a bit.  People keep saying to me "you do too much". This frustrates me b/c  I wish I had another choice but I don't.  I have to work, take care of the house and the kids.  I do take time out for myself often, probably more than most people b/c I have nursing.  It's the medical stress of our life that I need a rest from but unfortunately we have no control over it.  At this point I will take a month of no hospitals!!!!!!