So Janessa had a great birthday. We really wanted to make it special as life has been so crazy for her especially with the move and the boys. She got everything she wanted and we went to the homecoming football game and the crowd sang happy birthday to her. It was so awesome.

Sat. was crazy. I went to a birthday party with Janessa and took Avery with me. Thank god, because my nurse had been trying to call me b/c Isaiah stopped breathing b/c he had a mucous plug. She had to call 911 and he got taken to the hospital. He got stabilized pretty quickly but certainly a very scary experience and an eyeopener for us.

Avery has been pretty crabby. He wants to be held 24 /7 which is very difficult with the rest of the brood. I swear me and my MIL are ready to go and get him a baby swing that will fit him. He loved his swing, weight wise he will get awhile out of it as he is only 17 lbs but he is pretty long. Isaiah has been still having respiratory issues as well as Avery today.

Things are pretty crazy but worse than usual. I swear you need 2 people at all times to care for the boys. There is not a single moments rest. I even forget to eat. I feel so unproductive lately. It is also sad b/c I will always have to rely on nursing to help care for the boys which is another headache in itself. Lately, I just feel like I don't belong anywhere. KWIM. I feel that very few people can relate even though they try. It is a pretty lonely life. This is me feeling overwhelmed and bad for myself.

On the plus side. We did go to NYC with Janessa and had a great time. It was a perfect day. She was so thrilled. It takes little to please kids. She was more excited about the subway than buying any toys. It was nice for Rick and I to spend alone time with Ness.

What I am thankful for:
*Janessa is such a great kid and had a great birthday
*we were able to go away on Sunday
*My nurse knew exactly how to handle Isaiah's crisis and he is okay
*My mother-in-law is our life-saver. She helps us out so much
*I was able to catch up with family that we have not seen in a long time this weekend
*we are not in the hospital (5 days home. Yay.)